It can get so mixed up sometimes..."Is this intense emotional reaction to a loss in the past...in the present...or an anticipated loss, just ahead?" In these times, many people are saying, "Lean into the emotion, wherever it comes from." I have to agree with this direction regarding emotions that rise up, seemingly out of nowhere, but what of the 'physical' loss? In thinking about our beloved Maggie, I calculate that on any given day, I kissed her face a dozen times and stroked her body for a total of hours every day, walked her and played with her for at least an hour every day - now, that is all completely gone...just disappeared! For me, that pain is experienced as a physical withdrawal - not unlike withdrawal from narcotics, 'cold turkey'. Can't be too quick to push through it. So hard to say goodbye!
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